2006 年 7 月 – 第 2 页

难以释怀

我从来没有尝试过连续两次大考退步的。这次来了，继期中考后，我这次期末考又退步了。

最差最难以接受的是物理和英语，物理不及格，英语排年级400多。

我一直以来，最想考好的就是这两科。英语一直是自己的强项，前几次大考都没让自己失望，或许正因为如此，骄傲自满，沾沾自喜，自以为是，导致了这次的大败。

物理我一直都很弱。我也不知道为什么，其实我的数学一直都不错，至少每次都130左右吧，可是物理就每次一塌糊涂没有拿过一次高分。我想或许物理做题太少，思维要求也更灵活。

我想考好物理，很大程度是张福利的原因。

张福利，我也不知道怎么说这个物理老师好了，反正没有好感。我认为他对我也没有什么好感，对我们班也是，不闻不问，抓的也不紧，喜欢小题大做地训斥。所以我很想证明自己的能力，我不想让他看低我陈某人。

我败了这次，彻底败了。下半学期的懒散，贪玩，还有过于乐观，浮躁，脱离实际，让我陷入了无法逃脱的困境当中。我这次很是自责与内疚，可以说我根本没有怎么好好静下心学习过。

我怒了，也怕了，这样下去，我会死的。假如我遵守不了那个约定，我真的想去死

所以，我把机器里所有游戏都删了。或许这样能暂时安抚我深厚的罪恶感

早睡早起

昨天出去玩了一天，累，不过同有滴人讲了电话讲的很满足很尽兴很开心，所以精神上是活力充沛的。

耐不住疲劳啦，身体控制了精神，十点多倒在了床上，灯都没关就睡了。

早上七点多起来了，看了看世界杯赛果，德国出局了。其实我挺喜欢德国的

刚发现一个能播放多个音乐文件的好东西，http://www.fenglin.sh.cn/bbs/read.php?tid=248，帮它卖个广告吧

哈哈哈，what a brand new day，希望英语能再创新高，保持不败。

tired out

last night i was caught by dad for my chatting with my friends in QQ so late.he said it was useless and worthless.i didnt want to say anythin.

i was tired out yesterday.entirely my energy’s gone out.big headache kept me painful and silent.i could hardly move my body…for some reasons,for someones,i sticked to volleyball at school afternoon though it rained cats N dogs.regardless of headache,i tried to keep myself laughing.

someone said to me u didnt need to live under my shadow.

i was shocked by this bullshit.

i wasnt bound to please u but i wanna hang on with u for happyness. i was uncomfortable today but i still came.mr.F kept me waiting for a long time so that i got a little bit angry.headache ‘s going N going so that i didnt wanna to say much words.

i got my troubles.why didnt someone understand?

i felt sad for being ignored.above all,the words reacted that u didnt understand me and u didnt think for me.like a sword,hit into my heart,made me disappointed N cast me down.

i cant fall asleep the whole night.

people always think less for me.they always misunderstand me.

i am tired out mentally…